OK- Next blog entry. Pathetic crush update.

I’m beginning to think that this guy might gay. I mean, my friends did say that they got gay vibes from him so maybe they are right. And Elton John didn’t announce that he was gay until he was in his 30s. This guy is NOT in his 30s, so maybe he just hasn’t had enough time to think about it?

Now I am suddenly recalling that Kevin Kline movie 'In & Out'.... It was a hilarious movie, but.... I feel so sorry for that girl in it. Poor thing. Dragged along like that. SO unfair.

Anyway, it would be a real shame if he WAS gay because, well, he is just awesome and we chat for hours and hours on the net. But on the other hand, I suppose he’d be alright to have as a friend. *Sigh* So, the crush is being strangled here by a conversation about him falling in love with the lead singer of the Arctic Monkeys and his dad telling him he looked gay at his family’s Christmas because he was wearing a scarf. He tells people that he’s not gay, and I suppose he should know, but does he really?? Kevin Kline doesn't know in that movie. Elton John didn't know.... How did Billy Joe Armstrong turn up on the list of gay/lesbian/bi celebrities? This may mean that I was always doomed to fall into this trap. It was the giant poster of Billy Joe on my wall in my teenage years.

Truth be known, it would be easier on the rest of the world at this moment if all gay people were able to admit that they were gay. And yes, I realise that this all sounds terribly simplistic, and it probably is, but the last thing I need is to wind up in a relationship that ends because he’s gay and all that anyone can say was ‘I told you so’ or ‘Well, you DID initially think that, didn’t you?’. I’m not stupid, I don’t put myself in stupid situations (often), but, well, there is potential for me to do exactly that. You see, I don’t actually have a ‘gaydar’ AT ALL. I have never cared enough about the distinction to warrant having one. And now, NOW I can see where one might come in handy.

*Bigger sigh* I am now officially amending my checklist with one more clause: ISN’T GAY!’

P.S. Crush is NOT OFFICIALLY over. But give it another two weeks, max. Happy new year, everybody. See you in 2010.